week 10 down 3 lbs

Okay all for another update... down another 3lbs for a grand total of 44 that puts me at 287... 1 more lbs and i will weigh what i did when i was in the 10th grade. I cant believe how crazy that sounds but what sounds even crazier is when i hit my goal weight which is different than what my dr wants i will weigh less than i did in the 4th grade... how crazy is that.

week 9 down 3 lbs

Sorry it took me so long to update you all but before I get to the weight let me tell you whats been going on. {1} i have a boyfriend but its kinda hard because he lives in cali but i cant wait till April 3 when i can see him. {2} I have wi fi at my house now to go with the laptop i got for Christmas.  okay now that i said all that let me start with what you all came here to read about. So i lost 3 lbs which puts me at 290 and i cant believe it... almost down to what i weighted my sophomore year which was 286. With in the next two weeks i hope to be there. This is a rough month for my family and I and i feel like this a cursed month for my family so as long as i do good every week i will be happy. the days of this month that worry me are the 23rd and the 28th. I know as long as i stick to it nothing will go wrong... week 10 coming next.

Need to say this

I am a 30 year old women who has been fighting her food addiction for as long as I can remember. How I got my reality check was rather simple. {1} when i found out my BMI was 60% and {2} when the doctor tells you that you are on the verge of diabetes as well as cardiac heart disease . I realized in that very moment that I had been living on borrowed time and that if I did not do something quick I would not make it to see 35. I have so much in my life i have yet to do and there was no way I was going to let my addiction kill me. We all suffer from some sort of addiction whether it be drugs alcohol sex gambling or yes for most of us its food. The problem with a food addiction is that unlike other addiction you need food to survive. So what do you do when your very addiction is what you need to stay alive. Well for me it was very simple it got my tiny 5'2 self up to 331 lbs and heading for an early grave. Yes there are some who feel my doctor got me in to early because it was about a month and they may be right but truth be told I would not change this for anything in the world. I also know that even if my friends feel this way they would want me around and I could have come up with excuse after excuse as to reasons why the surgery would not be good right now so instead what I did is really simple. I dove head first into the deep end and I am enjoying the swim that will save my life. I want to thank everyone who is supporting me though this journey and I hope you all know that my life would be so miserable if none of you were in it.  I also must thank the most amazing women in the world in 1980 she gave me life and in 2010 she gave me life again. Mom your the best and I love you more than you will ever know.

xoxo
Shelley

week 8 down 5.1lbs

lost 5.1 lbs this week and i feel great. Down 38 lbs all together and my weight is now 293. Almost back down to my 3x size clothes and I cant wait. I am going to save one outfit for every size i go down to remind myself of were i was and were i never want to be again. I need to thank all my friends and family for their support in me. I would be nothing without all of you and for those i don't see everyday just wait till i come out and see you. i think you will all die because even 38 lbs later i see a difference and i cant imagine what it will be like in aug. See you all soon and much love.

.xoxo
shelley